It had completely slipped my mind that it has been four years since graduating high school.
This weekend, in-between church services and making homemade donuts with my housemates in little Sebring, Florida, I flipped through my timeline noticing it was flooded with pictures of my former classmates…wearing caps and gowns…again.
Didn’t we just do this!!?
I failed.
Yup. That was my first thought, as if it had been settling in, ready to bubble up.
“Everyone is so stinkin’ successful, I bet they’ve got their lives so together…half of them are even engaged or married!”
And there I was, making donuts.
(The sprinkled, maple ones were amazing by the way.)
I was surprised by my own feelings that arose while flipping through social media.
I wanted to curl into those emotions and just…sulk.
But then, as one of my youth girls exclaimed one day, “AND THEN I GOT A GOD SLAP!”.
And I was reminded again of the truth as to why I haven’t been in ‘typical’ school these last three years
(ya ok, I got 1 year of college under my belt).
Not that I suggest this for everyone, but during my time of schooling…the Lord simply just called me out of it.
(I think He had to kick me out of the country to break some of my stubbornness).
So He did.
He pulled me right up out of my comfortability and plopped me in as a part of the Breathe family, living in Haiti.
And wow, how full these years have been.
Success isn’t always what we believe it to be…
Success in the life of a follower of Jesus is being caught up, fully immersed in whichever place He wants you for that time.
No, I’m not currently graduating with a four year degree, but this month I get to graduate from the Great Commission Bible Institute and I wouldn’t have traded this time of studying His Word for anything in the world.
At the time, God asked me to give up the dreams I had for myself.
Now, a few years later, Compassion Corp is in the process of becoming an accredited alternative to traditional education and I got to be part of what started that process!
When I began, I thought I was giving up school, but God was actually giving me something better.
I have gotten the chance to live out my calling in Haiti, whilst earning my degree through the Compassion Corp program and the Great Commission Bible Institute.
I don’t know what He has in store for my future, but I can guarantee that it is better than anything else I could dream of. Today I am thankful for a God who obliterates my own plans for something, not ALWAYS better in my eyes, but something which never comes up empty.
For now, I am absolutely pleased, living in obedience to my Abba, making maple donuts with my crazy housemates.
Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.
Isaiah. 40:28
